vinc417

前幾天一直在釣朋友a的胃口
想要當面跟他講我喜歡的人
然後看他吃驚的表情
我真的覺得人在驚恐時
表情真的是好笑到爆

結果
他卻先爆了一件我真的有驚嚇到的事
其實我以前一直懷疑朋友A和朋友S有曖昧
那時我只覺得他們將來有一天一定會在一起
只是時間問題罷了
結果朋友A今天跟我講他跟朋友S去年七月就再一起了
他馬的
我真的被嚇到了
我到現在還是驚魂未定
不過他們倆真的是很合的一對
兩人的個性互補
而且兩人都有成長
朋友A變得比較有人性
朋友S變得比較成熟
這樣真的很棒
兩位請加油!

不過最後還是要補聲幹
我真的是被嚇到了

前天不知道為什麼我居然又感冒了
一起床喉嚨乾到吞口水會痛
我就知道完蛋了
昨天又熬夜看洋基打費城人
不過三點半就撐不下去

奇怪的是
今天睡不到九點就醒
還做了一個很真實的夢
我夢到我跟我的國中同學鴨子、靈異坐在升旗台聊天
然後被某個路過的主任罵說我們怎麼可以在這聊天
然後我就回擊:坐在這聊天是我們的權益，你沒有權力禁止我們
然後夢就轉到我跟他們坐在教室被我國中班導罵
而且還一直針對我
轉頭一看鴨子居然坐我旁邊
還很有義氣的向我示意我們都挺你
然後我就醒了

一醒來就我笑了
他馬的我一定卡到陰
我居然沒有夢到金針他們
反而夢到鴨子他們
而且還做了反抗師長的事
我想我當時可能壓抑過久了
想說要為我媽做個好形象
我都盡量不參與他們的反抗活動
裝乖不翹課、不聊天
騙鬼阿
現在想想我以前還真是了不起的做作
我怎麼可能那麼乖阿

不過還突然很懷念我的國中同學們
國三禮大概是我人生中最團結的一班
而且還結交到很好的朋友
而且我最喜歡附中的一點
就是我們的友誼都是超越性別的好
這樣很好:)

21號晚上
我們相約去台科聽一場演講
是一個男生從北京騎單車到巴黎
這次聚會也算是跟郭小哈餞別
因為再來她就要再度閉關到考完試
而我早就遠走高飛

首先
不得不說
台科的伙食真得是比政大好
指南路上很多商家幾乎是看學生沒啥選擇
哄抬物價趁機搶錢
一餐隨便吃都可以上70、80
不過還是有很多便宜又好吃的店家
可惜都在新光路上
有時嫌遠都懶得去那邊吃
(廣告:保儀路上的磨豆花棧跟小甜甜兩家甜點超推薦)
相較之下
台科一盤50元的素食不錯吃又可以飽
真是好太多了

演講部分
其實我沒有很感動
因為要作這樣的一趟旅程並不是做不到
只是我想女生要考慮的事比男生多
還有就是演講者的聲音過於平淡
實在是提不太起勁(謎之音:還有不帥)
第一是月經的問題
說真的一但我們到比較落後的國家
這是一個一定要考慮的問題
平常我是不在乎髒兮兮
也不在乎一定要洗澡
反正都決定要出來旅行了
哪管得了那麼多
但是月經一來就很令人頭痛
不洗澡陰道很容易感染
水不乾淨也很容易感染
第二是安全的問題
就像演講者所提到的
除非很有錢可以天天住旅館
要不然還是得隨地打地舖
女生先天上在力氣方面就有弱勢
而且其實很多國家對於女性還是有歧視
視女性為物或地位較低賤
出去睡荒郊野外一不小心就被強暴了我想也是有可能的

聽完演講後想要找一個地方坐著繼續聊
於是我們就在公館閒晃後
在自來水公園發現一個不錯的地方
那是一個路邊bar
整家店很有海邊度假酒吧的感覺
一罐外國啤酒50實在是很划算
還有賣墨西哥捲、薯條跟德國香腸堡
很不錯的酒類配菜
旁邊有多彩燈光柱的裝飾
另外捕蚊燈的光也搭配的很不錯
老闆像潘若迪跟楊修維的綜合體
除去會突然亂入其實人還蠻熱情的
美中不足是電視不夠大台
要不然世足決賽或世界大賽還蠻想揪人去看

臨走前郭小哈給了我一張充滿愛的卡片
封面實在是很有她的風格
居然用公文寫法
而且印章畫得還真的是唬到我了
真的很感謝他的鼓勵
不過都是用威脅的手法XDDDDD

我會記得我們的約定
而且一定要實現
幾年後大家德國見
一起騎車去環歐!!!

快要離開台北
才忽然想要狂吃大餐
於是在20號那一天
我跟葉仲芸、汪睦安、沈明政組成了壽喜燒四人組
當天是去吃momo
這是我第二次去吃momo
第一次是我大二時的畢業家聚
也是最後一次家聚:)

Anyway
我覺得我們四個人吃吃到飽實在是很划算
因為各個實力都很堅強
我們一共幹掉了18盤肉
吃的真是有夠爽的
不過我的實力退步很多
因為很久沒有吃這麼多東西了
大四後就沒有每個禮拜跟球隊的大家去四川養胃
現在整個就是很普通的食量
遙想當年我可是跟吳強頭對尬吃四碗飯的人
現在真是不堪一擊

就在那天我找到了同好
我們順便約了接下來一個月要吃的三攤
有壽喜燒一丁、diner跟鼎王
話說下禮拜四我們就要衝壽喜燒一丁了
聽說比momo還好吃
還讓白癡葉仲芸不惜一切的在momo店員前狂稱讚
真是期待XD

我有時候都在想
我是不是在虐待自己當中找到快感
明明就對網球有嫌惡與拒絕的反應
卻還是忍不助手癢去看了比賽的結果

早就不想參加的婊子盃
看到曾經跟自己旗鼓相當的對手拿到第三
讓我後悔極了的大專盃
差點幹掉的對手居然拿了冠軍
看到這樣的結果
反而讓我自己又陷入了一個後悔的迴圈

表面上是很風光亮麗
輸了就找受傷或沒有認真打的原因為自己開脫
講明白點
我缺乏面對失敗的勇氣
只能逃避而放棄盡全力

擇其所愛 愛其所選
我曾經以為我會在運動方面有所成就
至少要對自己的選擇負責任
就算失敗也才不會後悔
結果在每方面都失敗
現在看到那些我得到的證書與獎狀
有虛榮心但感覺不到成就感
總覺得我不具備相符的實力

選擇出國
或許是想給自己一個挑戰自己的機會
在一個人生地不熟的國度
家人、朋友全在千里之外
以及艱峻的環境與社會
種種累積成瀕臨臨界點的壓力
來激發自己求生的本能

我一直在追求這樣的體驗
壓力大到會覺得腦血管要ㄅㄧㄚˋ開
但還是對挑戰感到血脈噴張

不過很多時候都持續不久
在極度激情過後
反而會讓我空虛到抑鬱

我果然
很愛作賤自己:)



　

自從大三當完隊長後
其實就有想要退隊的念頭
對很多事情都感到很失望
也沒有了想要贏的渴望
但是還是沒辦法堅決地說出我要退隊

就這樣一直很沒目標
渾渾噩噩地到了大四
原本想說這個念頭也只是我一時地衝動
畢竟我這個人反骨到了一個很難搞的境界
就算沒有很想打球
那就跟我這一屆的隊友們快快樂樂等畢業算了
但是我很不能諒解的是
老師對於他們三個人的退隊居然沒有挽留或給予他們彈性的空間
就讓他們這樣離開了
他們對網球的熱愛就被這一大堆的鳥事給摧毀掉了

到了大四這一年
或多或少都會要為自己的未來著想
畢竟我們也不是從小練起
也是沒有足夠的能力靠這個吃飯
三年的努力讓我去追逐夢想
雖然被很多事情破壞掉
至少我努力過 夢碎了 有遺憾但我接受結果
畢竟我還差其他人遠的很

但我現在最後悔的事
是我沒有在半年前堅決地表達我自己
我留在隊上
占了學妹的名額
又沒有想贏的意念
打了好幾場我自己都看不下去的比賽
我都做了些什麼

有沒有兩全其美的辦法
我不想再回去
一切都變質了

Pull up to the front, you see the club glow
You see a man at the door then you say hello
And the beating in my heart, music starts to grow
It's time to step up now

Even though I think I'm scaredto dance
Gotta get a drink and pour it down
Try to move around now to the sound
It's time to stand up, stand up, stand up, stand up

Oooh, why do you always keep me waiting?
And now I'm falling for you
Ooh, out on the floor we keep on moving
I can't let you out of my sight

Got this picture in my mind now that you're my friend
Brush against your hair, it smells like peppermint
Can you read those messages that I sent?
It's time to step up now

Even though I think I'm scared to dance
Gotta get a drink and pour it down
Try to move around now to the sound
It's time to stand up, stand up, stand up, stand up

Oooh, why do you always keep me waiting?
And now I'm falling for you
Ooh, out on the floor we keep on moving
I can't let you out of my sight

Do you wanna get close?
Do you wanna be mine?
Now you're standing here by my side
Do you wanna get close?
Do you wanna be mine?
Now you're standing here right by my side

Na, na, na, na, na, na, oh, oh, oh
Na, na, na, na, na, na, oh, oh, oh
Na, na, na, na, na, na, oh, oh, oh
Na, na, na, na, na, na, oh, oh

Oooh, why do you always keep me waiting?
And now I'm falling for you
Ooh, out on the floor we keep on moving
I can't let you out of my sight

Na, na, na, na, na, na, oh, oh, oh
Na, na, na, na, na, na, oh, oh, oh
(I can't let you out of my sight)
Na, na, na, na, na, na, oh, oh, oh
Na, na, na, na, na, na, oh, oh, oh

No, don't keep me waiting
(Na, na, na, na, na, na, oh, oh, oh)
No, don't keep me waiting
(Na, na, na, na, na, na, oh, oh, oh)
No, don't keep me waiting
(Na, na, na, na, na, na, oh, oh, oh)

No, don't keep me waiting
(Na, na, na, na, na, na, oh, oh, oh)
No, don't keep me waiting
(Na, na, na, na, na, na, oh, oh, oh)

Na, na, na, na, na, na, oh, oh, oh
Na, na, na, na, na, na, oh, oh, oh
Na, na, na, na, na, na, oh, oh, oh

I know my voice is silence to your ears
I know I said some things you didn't deserve to hear
I miss you, God I miss you, why do I miss you?
I lie awake at night kicking at the sheets
No matter how much I try they never cover my feet
I need you, God I need you, why do I?
I finally gathered up the strength
To get through my days

[Chorus]
You lift me up
(Just to let me down)
You lift me up
(Just to let me down)

You call me on the phone to try to see if I'm at home
You play with my emotions; give me some kind of hope
I miss you, God I miss you, why do I?
I finally gathered up the strength
To get through these lonely, lonely nights

[Chorus]

You've got me desperate and confused
And my confidence is thrown
I'd rather be miserable with you
Than ever be alone
You're free, of me

You lift me up
(Just to let me down)

I will change the way I talk
I will change the way I feel
I will change the way I walk
Until nothing left is real
I will change the way I call your name
I will change the way I eat
I will change the way I touch you
When you're lying there asleep
Because I miss you
God I miss you, I miss you
Return to me
Return to me
I will change everything

She cries, cries
But her hearts givin' in
She tries, tries
But the walls never give

In the end, her place in heaven
Is closer to the place that she's in

refren':
Will you tell me to be strong
And that love will save us all
Save a place to rest our souls
Then survive

The winds, blowing strong
And the clouds, coming in
To the tears, in the night
Lost, in the winds

I know she'll find, her place in heaven
Erasing the pain that she's in

refren' (2x)

Well, how long will it be?
How long will it be?
How long will it be, in love?

Will you tell me to be strong
And that love will save us all
Save a place to rest our souls
Then survive (2x)

おかえり sweet home かえる場所 yeah 愛をありがとう

また平気なふりをして 悲しみの色塗り潰して
笑ってしまうんです
信じる事の大切さ 分かってるのにいざという時
疑ってしまうんです
空っぽな体 流れる時に 浮いてしまいそうになるけど
あなたの事 抱きしめたい この気持ちが 突き動かすの

おかえり I'm home 一言で満たされる心
おかえり sweet home かえる場所 yeah 愛をありがとう sweet home

自分の事ばかりを 考える大人は ずるいんだと
思っていたんです
でも必死で帰る事を 叫んでる人もいるんだと
やっと知ったんです
当たり前の幸せなんか この世界に一つもない
あなたの為そう思えた この気持ちが 突き動かすの

おかえり I'm home スピードが 加速してく毎日
おかえり sweet home 変わらない ずっとある景色 sweet home

探してなくした心の傷が
立ち向かう地図に変われたのは
おかえりがあったから

おかえり I'm home 一言で満たされる心
おかえり sweet home 帰る場所 yeah 愛をありがとう
Oh...
おかえり I'm home 大丈夫あなたがいるから
おかえり sweet home 待っててね もうすぐ着くから sweet home

平気な顔で嘘をついて
裝著一副沒事的表情說謊


笑って 嫌気がさして
嘻嘻哈哈 露出厭煩的模樣

楽ばかりしようとしていた
想的盡是輕鬆簡單的事

ないものねだりブルース
強求自己沒有的而憂鬱

皆安らぎを求めている
每個人都在追求安逸

満ち足りてるのに奪い合う
明明足夠了卻互相爭奪

愛の影を追っている
追逐愛的影子


退屈な毎日が急に輝きだした
索然無趣的日子突然開始閃耀起來

あなたが現れたあの日から
從你出現的那一天起

孤独でも辛くても平気だと思えた
儘管孤獨痛苦也覺得不在乎

I'm just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

病める時も健やかなる時も
不管病痛的時候或是健康的時候

嵐の日も晴れの日も共に歩もう
就算暴風天或晴天也要一起走下去


I'm gonna tell you the truth

人知れず辛い道を選ぶ
選擇了無人瞭解的坎坷道路

私を応援してくれる
決定把一直為我加油的你

あなただけを友と呼ぶ
當作真正的朋友

強がりや欲張りが無意味になりました
逞強和奢求全都變得毫無意義

あなたに愛されたあの日から
從被你深愛的那一天起

自由でもヨユウでも一人じゃ虚しいわ
自由也好從容也好一個人實在太空虛

I'm just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

Ohもう少しだよ
Oh 就差一點點了

Don't you give up

Oh見捨てない 絶対に
Oh 別眼睜睜放棄 絕對不要


残酷な現実が二人を引き裂けば
殘酷的現實愈是拆散兩人

より一層強く惹かれ合う
愈是會強烈地吸引彼此

いくらでもいくらでも頑張れる気がした
稀鬆平常的生活突然開始閃耀起來

I'm just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

ありふれた日常が急に輝きだした
感覺再怎麼樣也可以努力下去

心を奪われたあの日から
從心被奪走的那一天起

孤独でも辛くても平気だと思えた
即使孤獨痛苦也覺得不在乎

I'm just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

Stay with me, stay with me
My baby, say you love me
Stay with me, stay with me

一人にさせない
不會讓你孤獨一人

I just woke up from a fuzzy dream
You never would believe those things that I had seen
I looked in the mirror and I saw your face
You looked right through me, you were miles away

All my dreams they fade away
I'll never be the same
If you could see me the way you see yourself
I can't pretend to be someone else

You always love me more, miles away
I hear it in your voice, we're miles away
You're not afraid to tell me, miles away
I guess we're at our best when we're miles away

So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away

When no one's around then I have you here
I begin to see the picture, it becomes so clear
You always have the biggest heart,
When we're six thousand miles apart

Too much of no sound
Uncomfortable silence can be so loud
Those three words are never enough
When it's long distance love

You always love me more, miles away
I hear it in your voice, we're miles away
You're not afraid to tell me, miles away
I guess we’re at our best when we're miles away

So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away

I'm alright, don't be sorry, but it's true
When I'm gone you'll realize
That I'm the best thing that happened to you

You always love me more, miles away
I hear it in your voice, we're miles away
You're not afraid to tell me, miles away
I guess we're at our best when we're miles a-a-away...

You always love me more, miles away
I hear it in your voice, we're miles away
You're not afraid to tell me, miles away
I guess we're at our best when we're miles away

So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away

I’m holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I’m hearing what you say
But I just can’t make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you’re sorry
Didn’t think I’d turn around and say..

That it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late

I’d take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it’s turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I’m afraid

It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
Woahooo woah

It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, yeah yeah
I said it’s too late to apologize, a yeah

I’m holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground...

I'm all alone in your heart
Have I a hope with your heart?
She's such a teaser, she's such a star
Give me a reason or gimme a chance

I'm all alone in your heart, I'm all alone
It tears me apart
I'm all alone

Doing all I can do, just to be close to you.
Every time that we meet, I skip a heartbeat.
Always up for a laugh, she's a pain in the arse
Every time that we meet, I skip a heartbeat.

Give me an evening, or give me a night.
I'll show you the time, of your life
I'll walk you home safe, from the dark
I'll give you my jacket, I'll give you my heart

But she won't come dancing tonight,
She's having the time of her life
I'm all alone

Doing all I can do, just to be close to you
Every time that we meet, I skip a heartbeat
Always up for a laugh, she's a pain in the arse
Every time that we meet, I skip a heartbeat

I do love, she does heartbreak
I did love, till she broke my heart
I do love, she does heartbreak
I did love, till she broke my heart
I do love, she does heartbreak
I did love, till she broke my heart
I do love, she does heartbreak
I did love, till she broke my heart

Doing all I can do, just to be close to you
Every time that we meet, I skip a heartbeat
Always up for a laugh, she's a pain in the arse
Every time that we meet, I skip a heartbeat
I skip a heartbeat for you.

Doing all I can do, just to be close to you
Every time that we meet, I skip a heartbeat
Always up for a laugh, she's a pain in the arse
Every time that we meet, I skip a heartbeat

I skip a heartbeat for you...

When I was young
I never knew
what this thing called love
could do to you
but since you been gone
and I've been on my own
I've been feeling quite peculiar
but I'll get by without your smile
I'll get through without you

But I wish it was me you chose
I wish it was me you chose
I wish it was me you chose
I wish it was me you chose
cause Elvis ain't dead
and you're coming back
and Elvis ain't dead
and you're coming back
Oh

Since you been gone
I can do what I like
but it doesn't mean a lot to me
I'm all shook up
and I'm lonesome tonight
I think I need a love lobotomy
but I'll get by without your smile
I'll get through without you

But I wish it was me you chose
I wish it was me you chose
I wish it was me you chose
I wish it was me you chose
cause Elvis ain't dead
and you're coming back
cause Elvis ain't dead
and you're coming back
Oh no, Oh no, Oh no

You
Me
Maybe we we're never meant to be
(2x)

Elvis isn't dead
Elvis isn't dead
Elvis isn't dead
cause I heard him on the radio

Elvis isn't dead
Elvis isn't dead
Elvis isn't dead
and you're coming back to me I know

Elvis isn't dead
Elvis isn't dead
Elvis isn't dead
yes I heard him on the radio

Elvis isn't dead
Elvis isn't dead
Elvis isn't dead

Me you chose
I wish it was me you chose
I wish it was me you chose
cause Elvis ain't dead
and you're coming back
and Elvis ain't dead
and you're coming back

And Elvis ain't dead
And Elvis ain't dead
And Elvis ain't dead
And Elvis ain't dead

Elvis has left the building
Thank you and good night